The real me?

I'm having a really hard time trying to fall asleep. When that doesn't work it's always best to keep your mind off it. Now what am I thinking? I'm thinking that for the longest time I've been living a double life where I enjoy one than the other. My alter ego is a rebellious sweet but cool person who can be scary but still and hopefully approachable. The me I live around the family is a trouble maker but the loner who has a hard time connecting with jokes and girls. I'm working on being a better person just to get by. Not like I'm stressed enough